Look mum! I’m all grown up!
think out of me and my sisters, I was the only one of us not to experience separation anxiety.
strong sense of being my own person from an early age was probably what
challenged my mother the most about me.
‘once you make up your mind there’s no budging you’
this has continued to be the case.
I hadn’t fully appreciated that I’d been travelling my life’s road, seen a
signpost and taken an unplanned turn.
I thought I knew what I wanted but then I realised I was somewhere new and it was a really nice place too.
So I’ve decided to go live in this new place.
the thing about moving is that it’s all about change right?
streets are different and sometimes you get lost.
can’t take everything with you and even if you do, it never looks the same as it
have to change your routine and sometimes you even end up losing some friends.
uncomfortable, frightening and well, it’s just you.
there’s more on moving and change.
you get lost, you might just stumble upon a fantastic new café that has THE
You get to start again and breathe your life into a new space. Sure it’s
different, but it’s still you!
you find there are some friends who will make the extra effort to find where
you’re at now. They overwhelm you by offering to help you move your
stuff, clean up the old place, unpack the new.
I’m gonna stay in this new place and keep reminding myself of who I am and keep
making my own decisions. Because really, I do know my mind and however this
goes from here, it was what I wanted.
in staying, I’m still gonna face what I’ve left behind.
Damage, heartbreak, loneliness, anger.
Not just in the rear vision mirror. Staring right at it and taking responsibility, because it was me who took that turn off.
Of course I
could have found a way back.
always an exit that leads back to the main highway.
But I only took that turn because I needed that new direction. If I hadn’t, I wouldn’t have noticed that
signpost at all.
for the record, I’ve got a hopeless sense of direction and I don't have a
map with me.
So this is about as big girl as I have ever been.
an adult has it high points and low points.
But I’m going to stick with it. No going back now.